Day 12: Send a Letter to a Mass Murderer.

I havent chosen exactly who I'm sending this to, but I've written it. I didnt do a normal letter. here it is:
Dear (blank):
Here are some lyrics that I love at this moment, in no particular order.
-"So many people telling me one way, so many people telling me to stay, never had time to have my mind made up." Burning by The Whitest Boy Alive. I've found that peer pressure isnt as much people telling you to do things as it is an internal pressure you put on yourself derived from your friends or wherever. And that's harder, I think, because it feels like you want to do it even if you really don't.
-"No amount of coffee, no amount of crying, no amount of whiskey, no amount of wine, nothing else will do, I've gotta have you." Gotta Have You by The Weepies. I think this could go either way: 1) she's fallen in love with someone and just realized how much she needs them or 2) they've broken up but she cant get over him because she loves him and needs him. I think the second one is the more likely one and it's sad but not at the same time because there's the hope tha they'll get back together since she's realized how much she needs him. It's almost sweet.
-"You just laughed, and said well no one here forgets your past, and you ran baby ran, yeah you ran baby ran, yeah you ran" You Cant Fool Old Friends with Limousines by The Thrills. There will always be people who know who you really are.
-"When I jerk away from holding hands with you, I know these habits hurt important parts of you, remember when I was sweet and unexplainable, nothing like this person, unlovable" Back in Your Head by Tegan and Sara. I think I get the same way in relationships- kind of bored and mean, I wish I wouldnt.
-"But love is not these belongings that surrounding me, though there's meaning in there memories they hold, a breaking heart in an empty apartment was the loudest sound I ever heard" Brighter Discontent by The Submarines. Sometimes what you think you want isnt what you really want.
-"A laundry list of problems doesnt make you interesting, and never getting help doesnt make you brave, not listening to reason doesnt mean that you have faith, you're just cutting off your nose to spite your face" Sympathy for the Martyr by Straylight Run. This song is about people who want attention but I love these lines because they can apply to so many different types of people. First, people who complain (myself included), then people who always want to be a martyr (my mother, sometimes), then I'd like to think that the next one refers to Christians but it could also be like if you knew your spouse was cheating but you ignored it and pretended it wasnt true, that sort of thing. This lyric just makes me wonder why people cant be content, you know?
-"You're gonna make me wish for the time back before I was born, when every living breath was another new dawn, like the time I was five on the top of peak hill, and the wind almost took me away." On Peak Hill by Stars. This song makes me cry everytime because I listened to it on repeat for days when I found out I was going to have to move and leave my best friend behind. For me, this song captures sadness in the way where you feel like you could just stop living, not like killing yourself, but drifting off, something like that.
-"Is it the red wire, or the blue wire? Just pick one and cut, it just doesnt matter any more, or did it ever? Because I could never control when the bomb would explode, oh god I love you, I mean forever, I left my body behind to break the news, looks like it's over, please remember all of the things I never got a chance to say" Suicide Medicine by Rocky Votolato. This is about suicide, but I think it's beautiful.
-"Will someone please call a surgeon, who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart that you're deserting, for better company?" Nothing Better by The Postal Service. This is a wonderfully emotional song about a guy begging his girlfriend to come back to him. I wish you could hear it because the harmonies are so beautiful.
-"All the birds are heading down south but you're staying up north you say, I've got jackets, blankets, and sheets, it's going to be a cold December" Cold December by Matt Costa. This is about a girl moving away and then moving on but the boy still misses her and wants her to come home. I think it's a hard realization that someone else has moved on when you cant.
-"If that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time, you've dreamed a thousand dreams, none seem to stick in your mind" Two Points for Honesty by Guster. I think this is abot being indecisive and not sure of what you want, as well as giving up on what you do want. I'll be going to college soon and there's a lot of deciding and giving up to do, it'll be tough.
-"I feel like singing sad songs all night, I feel like tuning you out, do you want to make it into more of a fight? is this yelling what loves all about?" Bravo Charlie by Gregory and the Hawk. I think this may be a lyric you have to hear to love. It's sung by a girl with just a guitar and that hauntingly beautiful voice. I hate confrontation and fights so this is definitely how I feel sometimes. Like I just want to ignore everything for a while, you know?
-"Well my dad was sick, and my mom she cared for him, her love it nursed him back to life, and me I ran, I couldnt even look at him, for fear I'd have to say goodbye, and as I start to leave he grabs me by the shoulder and he tells me, what's left to lose? you've done enough, and if you fail then you fail but not to us, these last few years, I know they've been hard, but it's time to move out of the desert and into the sun, even if it's alone" On Your Porch by The Format. I love the story behind this just as much as I love the advice part. I think it's about having the courage to move on to bigger and better things and leave things behind that have been holding you back.
-"Secret heart, what are you made of? what are you so afraid of? could it be, three simple words, or the fear of being overheard?" Secret Heart by Feist. Saying what you want to can be tough, especially for things like "I love you".
-"If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied, illuminate the "no"s on their vacancy signs, if there's no one beside you when your soul embarks, then I'll follow you into the dark" I Will Follow You Into the Dark by Death Cab for Cutie. Love, right?
-"Well winter's gonna end and I'm going to clean these veins again, so close to dying that I finally can start living" An Attempt to Tip the Scales by Bright Eyes. It's about moving on and not keeping yourself down. I think Ive put quite a few lyrics about moving on in here! hmmm... I'm not really sure what that means.
I hope you enjoy this.
-Brittany

I felt like this way I was giving a piece of myself to whoever gets this and nothing is expected in return. and that way, hopefully they can just think over some of what I said or whatever, you know? Hopefully.